THINK OUTSIDE THE MINE – 4th Annual Uranium Documentary Film Festival, July 15 and July 17, Laguna Pueblo

Sherman Alexie

Hymn Why do we measure people's capacity To love by how well they love their progeny? That kind of love is easy. Encoded. Any lion can be devoted To its cubs. Any insect, be it prey Or predator, worships its own DNA. Like the wolf, elephant, bear, and bees, We humans are programmed to love what we conceive. That's why it's so shocking when a neighbor Drives his car into a pond and slaughter– Drowns his children. And that's why we curse The mother who leaves her kids—her hearth— And never returns. That kind of betrayal Rattles our souls. That shit is biblical. So, yes, we should grieve an ocean When we encounter a caretaker so broken. But I'm not going to send you a card For being a decent parent. It ain't that hard To love somebody who resembles you. If you want an ode then join the endless queue Of people who are good to their next of kin— Who somehow love people with the same chin And skin and religion and accent and eyes. So you love your sibling? Big fucking surprise. But how much do you love the strange and stranger? Hey, Caveman, do you see only danger When you peer into the night? Are you afraid Of the country that exists outside of your cave? Hey, Caveman, when are you going to evolve? Are you still baffled by the way the earth revolves Around the sun and not the other way around? Are you terrified by the ever-shifting ground? Hey, Trump, I know you weren't loved enough By your sandpaper father, who roughed and roughed And roughed the world. I have some empathy For the boy you were. But, damn, your incivility, Your volcanic hostility, your lists Of enemies, your moral apocalypse— All of it makes you dumb and dangerous. You are the Antichrist we need to antitrust. Or maybe you're only a minor league Dictator—temporary, small, and weak. You've wounded our country. It might heal. And yet, I think of what you've revealed About the millions and millions of people Who worship beneath your tarnished steeple. Those folks admire your lack of compassion. They think it's honest and wonderfully old-fashioned. They call you traditional and Christian. LOL! You've given them permission To be callous. They have been rewarded For being heavily armed and heavily guarded. You've convinced them that their deadly sins (Envy, wrath, greed) have transformed into wins. Of course, I'm also fragile and finite and flawed. I have yet to fully atone for the pain I've caused. I'm an atheist who believes in grace if not in God. I'm a humanist who thinks that we’re all not Humane enough. I think of someone who loves me— A friend I love back—and how he didn't believe How much I grieved the death of Prince and his paisley. My friend doubted that anyone could grieve so deeply The death of any stranger, especially a star. "It doesn't feel real," he said. If I could play guitar And sing, I would have turned purple and roared One hundred Prince songs—every lick and chord— But I think my friend would have still doubted me. And now, in the context of this poem, I can see That my friend’s love was the kind that only burns In expectation of a fire in return. He’s no longer my friend. I mourn that loss. But, in the Trump aftermath, I've measured the costs And benefits of loving those who don't love Strangers. After all, I'm often the odd one— The strangest stranger—in any field or room. "He was weird" will be carved into my tomb. But it’s wrong to measure my family and friends By where their love for me begins or ends. It’s too easy to keep a domestic score. This world demands more love than that. More. So let me ask demanding questions: Will you be Eyes for the blind? Will you become the feet For the wounded? Will you protect the poor? Will you welcome the lost to your shore? Will you battle the blood-thieves And rescue the powerless from their teeth? Who will you be? Who will I become As we gather in this terrible kingdom? My friends, I'm not quite sure what I should do. I'm as angry and afraid and disillusioned as you. But I do know this: I will resist hate. I will resist. I will stand and sing my love. I will use my fist To drum and drum my love. I will write and read poems That offer the warmth and shelter of any good home. I will sing for people who might not sing for me. I will sing for people who are not my family. I will sing honor songs for the unfamilar and new. I will visit a different church and pray in a different pew. I will silently sit and carefully listen to new stories About other people’s tragedies and glories. I will not assume my pain and joy are better. I will not claim my people invented gravity or weather. And, oh, I know I will still feel my rage and rage and rage But I won’t act like I’m the only person onstage. I am one more citizen marching against hatred. Alone, we are defenseless. Collected, we are sacred. We will march by the millions. We will tremble and grieve. We will praise and weep and laugh. We will believe. We will be courageous with our love. We will risk danger As we sing and sing and sing to welcome strangers.